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Singer's suicide note describes his despair

ATKINSON, N.H. -- Brad Delp, the lead singer for the band Boston who killed himself last week, left a note in which he called himself "a lonely soul," police reports released yesterday indicate.

Toxicology tests by the state medical examiner's office showed that Delp committed suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning. Police said Delp sealed himself in a bathroom with two charcoal grills sometime between 11:30 p.m. March 8 and the next afternoon, when his fiancee, Pamela Sullivan, found him on the bathroom floor, his head on a pillow and a note paper-clipped to his shirt.

"Mr. Brad Delp. J'ai une ame solitaire. I am a lonely soul," it read.

Sullivan told police Delp "had been depressed for some time," the reports said.

Sullivan called police after noticing a dryer vent tube connected to the exhaust pipe of Delp's car. In the garage, police found a note taped to a door. "To whoever finds this I have hopefully committed suicide. Plan B was to asphyxiate myself in my car."

In a third note at the top of the stairs, Delp cautioned there was carbon monoxide inside. "I take complete and sole responsibility for my present situation. I have lost my desire to live," he wrote. The note also included instructions on how to contact his fiancee. A picture of Delp and Sullivan was in the bathroom. "Unfortunately she is totally unaware of what I have done," the note said.

Police later found four sealed letters in an office. They were addressed to Sullivan, his children, their mother, Micki Delp, and another couple . Police Lieutenant William Baldwin said police gave the letters to family members without reading them.