I have a confession: Lately I've been feeling like a failure.
Sure, my marathon training is going well, but I'm stuck in this holding pattern with my weight. According to the BMI chart (not the only standard by which one should measure health, I know) I am still overweight.
And I have yet to see that magic number on the scale.
The smart half of my brain knows that the scale alone is not the sole measure of my worth.
In the time since I made the decision to change my lifestyle completely and become healthier I've run distances I never thought possible, completed a triathlon, out-dead-lifted my previous personal record, and more.
I've re-learned how to cook (look, Ma, LESS fat, same great taste!).
I've made friends I never would have made without becoming more active. And yet, every morning, I step on that scale and a tiny piece of me still wants to see that damn "magic number."
But last night, a seemingly tiny exchange I had over Twitter offered me some perspective.
PavementRunner tweeted he had a rough lunch run.
This is what I tweeted back:
@EJComeau true. A couple miles is better than no miles. Thanks for the perspective.— Pavement Runner (@PavementRunner) February 20, 2014
Sometimes it is hard for us to expand the lens through which we see.
And so this morning, with the exchange with PavementRunner in the back of my head, I stepped on the scale.
Instead of my heart sinking seeing only .8 lb lost, I took a breath and reminded myself that the woman who started this weight loss journey 80 pounds heavier should be PUMPED she is only about 15 pounds away from her goal.
An ugly run is better than no run, PavementRunner said. I agree.
And .8 lb loss is just one 35mm shot in the panorama of the 80 I've already lost.
It may not seem like much, but it all helps to fill in the picture.
A zoom lens often excludes other beautiful things that should be in our picture's frame.
It's all about perspective.