I'm a fits-and-starts kind of gal.
I will dive head-long into something for days, weeks, or months on end, and then abruptly just stop.
I get these wild ideas in my head and decide I just HAVE to do that. Some of my friends tell me I'm impulsive -- I like to think I'm spontaneous and creative.
When someone tells me I can't, it makes me that much more determined to do whatever crazy thing this person thinks is beyond my capabilities.
I'm a writer (I know, NOT breaking news, Elizabeth). Pair my need to write with my fits-and-starts personality and you get... well, Elizabeth squared.
You see, these fit-and-starts, when it comes to writing, show themselves by fluctuating between a desire to write ALL OF THE THINGS and then absolutely nothing at all.
Not that I don't want to write; it's just exhausting sometimes. Especially when you are a fits-and-starts gal who finds it hard to refrain from writing when she wants to. So I'll write for days on end, every free second I get.
And then, I'll be tired. And burned out. And in need of a break from writing.
It's a never ending cycle, really: Intense work followed by rest.
But writing, like running, is a funny thing. And if you take too much time to rest (or not enough) you'll wind up in worse shape than you were before.
And so I have to work -- every day -- on finding the middle. Where is that place with just the right balance?
It's taken me years to realize that I must write, at least a little bit, every day in order to keep myself sharp.
It's the same with running -- because even though right now only running 3-4 miles a day feels like torture, I know it's the best way to not exhaust myself or get bored.
What I really want is to run 26.2 miles again right now. Immediately.
But that would be like trying to write a novel at a typewriter without a ribbon.
Right now? I'm working on putting that ribbon back.